Then came today, and a dentist appointment. Now, a lot of sane, normal people would have heaped the regular cleaning atop the pile of shit they'd been wading through, and yet...
While I was waiting my turn in the office, I just noticed that, of all things, I was smiling. Downright grinning. I have zero idea why, I don't really care either. It was just this weirdest sensation. It was just this absolute pure moment of "All is well, things are gonna be ok". Which hell, I knew that. None of the crap I was in was THAT bad, which is why I haven't troubled much of anyone with it.
And believe me, it certainly wasn't the fact I was at the dentist. It was just this random place I was at, out of the house, no noise in my head, no other voices of other people, just a moment to myself where my mood just randomly shifted back to normal.
Such a strange morning.