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Saturday, February 13th, 2016
9:12 pm - Comics Next Week
Amazing Spider-Man Vol 4 #8
Astro City Vol 3 #32
Avengers Standoff Welcome To Pleasant Hill #1 Cover A Regular Daniel Acuna Cover
Batman And Robin Eternal #20
Deadpool And Cable Split Second #3
Doctor Fate Vol 4 #9
Extraordinary X-Men #7
Mighty Thor Vol 2 #4 Cover A Regular Russell Dauterman Cover
Poison Ivy Cycle Of Life And Death #2
Puppet Master #12 Cover A Regular Michela Da Sacco Cover
Secret Six Vol 4 #11
Spider-Woman Vol 6 #4
Squadron Supreme Vol 4 #4 Cover A Regular Alex Ross Cover
Starbrand And Nightmask #3 Cover A Regular Yasmine Putri Cover
Titans Hunt #5 Cover A Regular Yanick Paquette Cover
Uncanny Inhumans #5 Cover A Regular Brandon Peterson Cover
Web Warriors #4

J

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1:29 am - Neverending Nightmare
Today's big review for Trisk is an absolute nightmare. Nightmare Weekend that is.

Actually, it's still an absolute nightmare. The plot is a mess, it makes zero sense, and is just...augh.

J

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Friday, February 12th, 2016
10:15 pm - Pool Party!
While I should be working on tomorrow's big review for Trisk, I am instead going to the movies, not getting much sleep, watching Deadpool and writing my review of THAT.

So go check that out, and you'll have a few thousand words tomorrow...

J

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Thursday, February 11th, 2016
11:35 pm - Freaks and Geeks and Fangs and Gangs
Trisk just posted a new quickie review for the horror comedy Freaks of Nature.

It's humans vs. vampires vs. zombies.

Vs. Aliens.

Yeah, this movie has everything.

J

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Sunday, February 7th, 2016
12:34 pm - Comics Next Week
Agents Of S.H.I.E.L.D. #2 Cover A Regular Mike Norton Cover
All-New All-Different Avengers #5 Cover A Regular Alex Ross Cover
All-New Hawkeye Vol 2 #4 Cover A Regular Ramon Perez Cover
All-New Wolverine #5 Cover A Regular Bengal Cover
All-New X-Men Vol 2 #4 Cover A Regular Mark Bagley Cover
Batman And Robin Eternal #19
Batman Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles #3 Cover A Regular Freddie E Williams II Cover
Black Canary Vol 4 #8
Black Knight Vol 4 #4
Earth 2 Society #9
Guardians Of The Galaxy Vol 4 #5
Illuminati #4
Ms Marvel Vol 4 #4 Cover A Regular David Lopez Cover
New Avengers Vol 4 #6
Old Man Logan Vol 2 #2 Cover A Regular Andrea Sorrentino Cover
Silk Vol 2 #4
Spider-Gwen Vol 2 #5 Cover A Regular Robbi Rodriguez Cover
Spider-Man 2099 Vol 3 #6
Telos #5 Cover A Regular Carlo Pagulayan & Jason Paz Cover
Totally Awesome Hulk #3 Cover A Regular Frank Cho Cover
Ultimates Vol 4 #4
Weirdworld Vol 2 #3 Cover A Regular Mike Del Mundo Cover

J

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Monday, February 1st, 2016
1:12 am - Nightmares and Warriors
New Trisk is up, and since it's Fredbruary, it's time for another trip to Elm Street, with A Nightmare on Elm Street 3: Dream Warriors.

This has some really campy looks to it, thanks to the 80s, but at the same time, it's actually a really solid movie.

J

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Saturday, January 30th, 2016
11:30 am - Comics Next Week
A-Force Vol 2 #2 Cover A Regular Jorge Molina Cover
All-New All-Different Avengers #4 Cover A Regular Alex Ross Cover
All-New Inhumans #3 Cover A Regular Stefano Caselli Cover
Amazing Spider-Man Vol 4 #7 Cover A Regular Alex Ross Cover
Batgirl Vol 4 #48
Batman And Robin Eternal #17
Batman And Robin Eternal #18
Black Canary Vol 4 #7
Captain America Sam Wilson #6
Captain Marvel Vol 8 #2 Cover A Regular Kris Anka Cover
Contest Of Champions Vol 3 #5 Cover A Regular Victor Ibanez Cover
Deadpool And Cable Split Second #2
Doctor Strange Vol 4 #5 Cover A Regular Kevin Nowlan Cover
Extraordinary X-Men #6
Guardians Of Infinity #3 Cover A Regular Gary Choo Cover
Guidebook To The Marvel Cinematic Universe Marvels Captain America The First Avenger
Howard The Duck Vol 5 #4 Cover A Regular Joe Quinones & Kevin Wada Cover
Howling Commandos Of S.H.I.E.L.D. #4
Invincible Iron Man Vol 2 #6 Cover A Regular Mike Deodato Jr Cover
Old Man Logan Vol 2 #1 Cover A Regular Andrea Sorrentino Cover
Puppet Master #11 Cover A Regular Antonio Ontiveros Cover
Scarlet Witch Vol 2 #3 Cover A Regular David Aja Cover
Spider-Man Vol 2 #1 Cover A Regular Sara Pichelli Cover
Spider-Woman Vol 6 #3 Cover A Regular Javier Rodriguez Cover
Superman Lois And Clark #4 Cover A Regular Lee Weeks Cover
Uncanny Avengers Vol 3 #5
Uncanny X-Men Vol 4 #3 Cover A Regular Greg Land Cover
Vision Vol 2 #4 Cover A Regular Mike Mel Mundo Cover

J

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Sunday, January 24th, 2016
10:06 am - Comics Next Week
This is a small enough week that I'm gonna double up with next next week, and give me time to put a dent in this pile that keeps growing...

All-New All-Different Avengers #4 Cover A Regular Alex Ross Cover
All-New Inhumans #3 Cover A Regular Stefano Caselli Cover
Batman And Robin Eternal #17
Black Canary Vol 4 #7
Deadpool And Cable Split Second #2
Extraordinary X-Men #6
Guidebook To The Marvel Cinematic Universe Marvels Captain America The First Avenger
Howling Commandos Of S.H.I.E.L.D. #4
Old Man Logan Vol 2 #1 Cover A Regular Andrea Sorrentino Cover
Puppet Master #11 Cover A Regular Antonio Ontiveros Cover
Spider-Woman Vol 6 #3 Cover A Regular Javier Rodriguez Cover
Superman Lois And Clark #4 Cover A Regular Lee Weeks Cover

J

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Friday, January 22nd, 2016
11:26 pm - Marvel Comics: April, 2016
INVINCIBLE IRON MAN #8
INTERNATIONAL IRON MAN #2
BLACK PANTHER #1
Gwenpool #1
SPIDER-WOMEN ALPHA #1
SPIDER-GWEN #7
SILK #7
SPIDER-WOMAN #6
AMAZING SPIDER-MAN #10
AMAZING SPIDER-MAN #11
WEB-WARRIORS #6
SPIDER-MAN 2099 #9
SPIDER-MAN #3
SPIDER-MAN & SILK: THE SPIDER(FLY) EFFECT #2 (OF 4)
CAPTAIN AMERICA: SAM WILSON #8
NEW AVENGERS #9
NEW AVENGERS #10
UNCANNY AVENGERS #8
ALL-NEW, ALL-DIFFERENT AVENGERS #8
ILLUMINATI #6
AGENTS OF S.H.I.E.L.D. #4
AVENGERS STANDOFF: ASSAULT ON PLEASANT HILL OMEGA #1
SQUADRON SUPREME #6
HYPERION #2
A-FORCE #4
THE ASTONISHING ANT-MAN #7
ALL-NEW HAWKEYE #6
THE MIGHTY THOR #6
THE ULTIMATES #6
CAPTAIN MARVEL #4
THE TOTALLY AWESOME HULK #5
SCARLET WITCH #5
THE VISION #6
GUIDEBOOK TO THE MARVEL CINEMATIC UNIVERSE -- MARVEL'S IRON MAN 3/MARVEL'S THOR: THE DARK WORLD
BLACK WIDOW #2
DRAX #6
GUARDIANS OF INFINITY #5
GUARDIANS OF THE GALAXY #7
HOWARD THE DUCK #6
MS. MARVEL #6
ALL-NEW INHUMANS #6
UNCANNY INHUMANS #7
KARNAK #6
DOCTOR STRANGE #7
DOCTOR STRANGE: LAST DAYS OF MAGIC #1
PATSY WALKER, A.K.A. HELLCAT! #5
CONTEST OF CHAMPIONS #7
HERCULES #6
STARBRAND & NIGHTMASK #5
MOCKINGBIRD #2
WEIRDWORLD #5
POWER MAN AND IRON FIST #3
UNCANNY X-MEN #6
EXTRAORDINARY X-MEN #9
OLD MAN LOGAN #4
OLD MAN LOGAN #5
X-MEN '92 #2
ALL-NEW WOLVERINE #7
ALL-NEW X-MEN #8

J

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Wednesday, January 20th, 2016
12:10 am - DC Comics: April, 2016
BLOODLINES #1
BLACK CANARY #11
LEGENDS OF TOMORROW #2
DOCTOR FATE #11
EARTH 2: SOCIETY #11
SECRET SIX #13
TITANS HUNT #7
SUPERMAN: LOIS AND CLARK #7
BATGIRL #51
POISON IVY: CYCLE OF LIFE AND DEATH #4
BATMAN/TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLES #5
ASTRO CITY #34

J

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Monday, January 18th, 2016
11:33 am - An Update!
Because, uh, I really should've made one like six days ago, right?

ANYways, I heard from family late into Monday that dad was still in the hospital, waking up after the procedure, and they were going to let him rest up and recover until around 4, 5 o'clock before letting him go. Since that was late, and it takes a good 3 hours to get from there to here, my brother decided to wait and bring him home the following day. Sure, fine, vague, but he's awake and okay.

On an amusing note, my sister-in-law was a bit worried about dad, thinking he was drugged up, because he kept saying that there was going to be SO much laundry when he got home. "...No. Nope, that's dad. He's fine, and normal. Trust me. I'd be worried if he *didn't* mention the week of laundry I was piling up."

(I wasn't about to do laundry because there's something wrong with the machine, so didn't want to mess stuff up and have a disaster. Plot twist: I did laundry anyways, and it *was* almost a disaster.)

ANYways, finally found out the next day that they poked at dad's heart, that was mildly damaged, but nothing to worry about, he was fine in that department, and he's good to drive as much and as far as he wants! So that is *great* news.

The bad news is, they still don't know what's wrong with him, aside from gee, he's having problems breathing, maybe we should look at his lungs, like his family keeps saying to do? So that's next, for later this month. My sister is super pissed that they didn't start with the lungs, but things are a bit more complicated than she assumes. He's had breathing issues for awhile, and they were under control, and then he had ANOTHER thing happen, which had them start poking at THAT, and wanting to see what is wrong *there*. It wasn't a general "Something is wrong with me!" it was a "I have this specific problem, what's wrong??" and they started looking at THAT, not specifically anything lung or breathing related, hence why they're late in coming around to an actual problem which may or may not be related to everything else. I understand where the doctors are coming from with this. If someone says they have X problem, they look at that and causes, and might ignore something else the patient doesn't think is an issue, or related.

And as for me, well...this is a weight off my shoulders and my own panicky worries, except...well, it really does, as I said, kick the problem down the road a bit. My dad's almost 80, and no matter what they fix now, eventually, sooner rather than later (But hopefully further down the road than closer), everything *is* gonna crash. But I have breathing room and can procrastinate figure things out eventually.

My internal screams have gone from AAAAAAAAAA to aaaaaaaaa, basically...

But for now, I'm gonna yay and focus on the good, and hope they can do something about the breathing for the forseeable future, and we'll cross the next burning bridge as it comes.

J

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Sunday, January 17th, 2016
12:50 am - Comics Next Week
Astonishing Ant-Man #4 Cover A Regular David Nakayama Cover
Astro City Vol 3 #31
Batgirl Vol 4 #47
Batman And Robin Eternal #16
Captain Marvel Vol 8 #1 Cover A Regular Kris Anka Cover
Doctor Fate Vol 4 #8
Drax #3 Cover A Regular Scott Hepburn Cover
Hercules Vol 4 #3 Cover A Regular Jay Anacleto Cover
Ms Marvel Vol 4 #3 Cover A Regular Cliff Chiang Cover
New Avengers Vol 4 #5
Patsy Walker AKA Hellcat #2 Cover A Regular Brittney Williams Cover
Poison Ivy Cycle Of Life And Death #1 Cover A Regular Clay Mann Cover
Secret Six Vol 4 #10
Starbrand And Nightmask #2 Cover A Regular Yasmine Putri Cover
Titans Hunt #4 Cover A Regular Ed Benes Cover
Uncanny Inhumans #4 Cover A Regular Steve McNiven Cover
Uncanny X-Men Vol 4 #2 Cover A Regular Greg Land Cover

J

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Wednesday, January 13th, 2016
1:14 am - Re: Your Brains
Trisk is back with a full in depth review, and it's time to go back to basics with Re-Animator.

This is a classic, and for good reason. Which isn't to say it's not campy as hell, but in all the best ways.

And yes, even in the deepest dark when my life is falling apart (I have updates, later!), I still manage to do the funny.

J

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Monday, January 11th, 2016
1:08 am - The Ending of Things
Hey! I've been pretty quiet for awhile, aside from Trisks and comics! I actually miss talking here more. After this post, you're gonna wish I went back to being quiet...

My life is less than 24 hours away from very possibly coming crashing down around my ears.

My dad is not doing great, hasn't been for most of this year. He's just shy of 80, and things are catching up with him. Things seemed to be getting better a year ago after he got an operation to fix a hernia, but little things kept happening, and cue an endless series of tests.

A few weeks ago, the doctors deduced there was something wrong with his longs, and his heart strength had diminished, and he was advised not to drive long distances.

This cued my siblings to all start freaking out, and going to worst case scenarios, and pointing out to me how dad could have his license taken away from him. But for the most part, he seemed okay, and largely it was his mental state that was his biggest problem. When he wasn't thinking about the problems, he seemed like dad, and that was most of the time.

On Thursday, my brother picked him up to bring him down to his place in MA for a few days, so they could take him to the hospital for another test on Friday, and determine Just How Bad Things Are. Well, things occurred, and the appointment got bumped to Monday morning, so now I play the waiting game.

Now, on my side of things. I live with my dad, I don't work, I can't drive (Most of you know the reasons behind all this stuff so I won't go in depth there), and we live 10 miles from the nearest town, and 15-20 from the nearest city. So, if dad can't drive, there's no way he can stay here, and there's REALLY no way I can stay here.

Back around 2000ish, my mom's cousin moved to the area, and she couldn't drive anywhere either, and we just couldn't be her chauffeurs all the time, so she moved back to California after a single winter. I knew at that moment, that someday, that had a very real chance of being me, living here. It WILL NOT WORK.

So long ago, I at least had a *plan*. I would say things like, "OH if the worst happens, I'll just slam the panic button and be all, "HEY who wants to come move in with me!!" and people would *almost* certainly come. At least, I believed so. Back in 2000ish, it might've even been true. But since then, people have moved on, moved away, and/or outright *died*. I realised...I have zero friends. I mean, besides you guys. But people living hundreds of thousands of miles away don't really help, although back then, they were still an option.

I am so, completely, utterly alone.

For the past few months, when my siblings call, they keep bugging me about WHAT AM I GOING TO DO, or want to do, and I HAVE NO IDEA. I know I need to think about it, I *do* think about it, and nearly have panic attacks about it every single day. It doesn't help that half the time when they hit me with these Major Serious Topics, I've just woken up, and even if I *wanted* to think or talk about them, my brain is so not up for that topic. Let me at least get coffee in me, damnit.

I have zero support system. I barely talk to anyone. My support structure on IRC, where at least I'd almost always have 20+ people to whinge to up and disappeared, despite all my efforts to get people around to hang out and talk. I'm not one who sits around and moans about how real people go away, and even the pixel people friends online leave me, but it is HARD not to start thinking about everyone abandoning me, even if I don't mean to.

My best friend, one of the few people I DO talk to (And unfortunately a few thousand miles away in Canada, naturally) has had his own problems for the last nine years, and every time I've tried to talk with him about smaller moments of my life going to shit, or needing some cheering up or distracting, it's quickly acknowledged, and it's right straight back to dealing with his problems. I've slowly withdrawn more and more as it became clear that my problems are either inconsequential (even I acknowledge this for some of them), or just don't matter.

So all I can do is sit here, day after day, night after night, as my own thoughts devour my mind, knowing I have to do SOMEthing, and feeling like the few choices I had are GONE and they will be made FOR me. And I think some of that is what I hate the most. This feeling of being in freefall, of a lack of control.

Hopefully tomorrow, this long, long rant will be meaningless, or at least able to be kicked down the road for a bit longer. Hopefully, the doctors will see exactly what it is, know how to treat it for now, and dad can keep driving, maybe even not have to worry about distances (I personally think they're being overly cautious there, but I Am Not A Doctor), and maybe even go back to work.

That's the best case scenario.

Worst case...I have to move.

I lose my home of almost 30 years.

I have to go...SOMEwhere, who knows where. This is why I've been trying to get photographs of some of the night sky, because if I have to go on my own soon, it'll be to a city for obvious reasons, and it will kill me to lose my closeness to nature here.

And this just...just keeps hitting domino after domino.

I might be done with comics.

I might be done with Trisk.

I might be done with everything that matters to me, and everything is going away, taken from me, just...GONE like that, and with so few friends, not a single one in a physical sense, I am struggling to even see a point, and I know how that sounds.

I am losing my mind, I'm freaking out, I am on this precipice staring out into an abyss, I can't hold on anymore, and I am at this exact moment 100% unsure of what my life will be like in just a few more hours. Every single thing that matters to me could just be FFFT gone like that

I don't know what I'm going to do, and I have never felt so lost and alone and if I could just stop freaking out and panicking, maybe I could find a way, and I just need more time.

SO, that's the state of Jason these last few months. I've been keeping this inside my own head, but I had to let it out before the implosion on the horizon.

And a few things before I end this monstrously long post: I know how things sound, and I know how dark I'm coming off right now, but please don't worry about me on that front. I'm mostly just spewing my thoughts as they come right now with very little filter.

2) I know so much of this is my own damned fault and responsibility.

3) I know that my dad is going through hell too, and I don't want to make this All About Me, but how can I not, at the same time?

4) Please don't take offense at the stuff like 'no friends' and 'real people vs. pixel people' stuff. You KNOW what I mean, it's just hard to differentiate between the people you can see with your eyes every day, and the AMAZING AND AWESOME FRIENDS I have online and see every single day and way more than I ever would in person.

In the meantime, I am going to grab something to eat, hope for the best tomorrow, or at least not the worst, and hope I can stumble into something before everything goes to hell.

J
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Sunday, January 10th, 2016
10:40 pm - Come for a Visit, Stay Forever
Trisking up a quick review for The Visit!

M. Night Shyamalan has become such a joke these days, that people forget he has a few good movies, if not great movies, so it was good to see him return to his horror roots to refocus and hey! Actually make a good movie again!

J

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1:39 pm - Comics Next Week
Agents Of S.H.I.E.L.D. #1 Cover A Regular Mike Norton Cover
All-New All-Different Avengers #3 Cover A Regular Alex Ross Cover
All-New Hawkeye Vol 2 #3 Cover A Regular Ramon Perez Cover
All-New Wolverine #4 Cover A Regular Bengal Cover
All-New X-Men Vol 2 #3 Cover A Regular Mark Bagley Cover
Batman And Robin Eternal #15
Batman Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles #2 Cover A Regular Freddie E Williams II Cover
Black Knight Vol 4 #3 Cover A Regular Julian Totino Tedesco Cover
Captain America Sam Wilson #5
Earth 2 Society #8
Extraordinary X-Men #5
Guardians Of The Galaxy Vol 4 #4 Cover A Regular Arthur Adams Cover
Illuminati #3 Cover A Regular Riley Rossmo Cover
Mighty Thor Vol 2 #3 Cover A Regular Russell Dauterman Cover
Scarlet Witch Vol 2 #2 Cover A Regular David Aja Cover
Secret Wars #9 Cover A Regular Alex Ross Cover
Silk Vol 2 #3 Cover A Regular Helen Chen Cover
Spider-Gwen Vol 2 #4 Cover A Regular Robbi Rodriguez Cover
Squadron Supreme Vol 4 #3 Cover A Regular Alex Ross Cover
Star Trek (IDW) #53 Cover A Regular Tony Shasteen Cover
Uncanny Avengers Vol 3 #4 Cover A Regular Ryan Stegman Cover
Web Warriors #3 Cover A Regular Julian Totino Tedesco Cover

J

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Saturday, January 2nd, 2016
9:03 pm - Comics Next Week
Well, I'm glad I didn't order this week's books, because there was a shipping kerfuffle you fellow comic nerds may have heard about, that caused a bunch of books to be shipped early and be put out in certain stores, especially ones where you can order the next week's books... So when marvel finally said whoa whoa no, you can't sell those yet! and three of the books I was getting got yoinked from my order, leaving me with a mere nine books, definitely not worth the shipping.

But after the books being available, then not, then back on for Friday, but now *definitely* orderable for next week's that aren't out yet, everything is back to normal and I'm ordering books...

A-Force Vol 2 #1 Cover A Regular Jorge Molina Cover
All-New Wolverine #3 Cover A Regular Bengal Cover
Amazing Spider-Man Vol 4 #6
Batman And Robin Eternal #13
Batman And Robin Eternal #14
Black Canary Vol 4 #6 Cover A Regular Annie Wu Cover
Contest Of Champions Vol 3 #4 Cover A Regular Victor Ibanez Cover
Deadpool And Cable Split Second #1 Cover A Regular Reilly Brown Cover
Doctor Fate Vol 4 #7
Doctor Strange Vol 4 #4 Cover A Regular Kevin Nowlan Cover
Drax #2 Cover A Regular Scott Hepburn Cover
Guardians Of Infinity #2 Cover A Regular Jamal Campbell Cover
Howard The Duck Vol 5 #3 Cover A Regular Joe Quinones Cover
Howling Commandos Of S.H.I.E.L.D. #3 Cover A Regular Brent Schoonover Cover
Invincible Iron Man Vol 2 #5
Spider-Man 2099 Vol 3 #5
Squadron Supreme Vol 4 #2 Cover A Regular Alex Ross Cover
Superman Lois And Clark #3
Telos #4
Totally Awesome Hulk #2 Cover A Regular Frank Cho Cover
Ultimates Vol 4 #3 Cover A Regular Kenneth Rocafort Cover
Uncanny X-Men Vol 4 #1 Cover A Regular Greg Land Cover
Vision Vol 2 #3 Cover A Regular Mike Del Mundo Cover
Weirdworld Vol 2 #2 Cover A Regular Mike Del Mundo Cover

J

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Friday, January 1st, 2016
1:54 am - It's Friday, Friday, Gettin' Killed on Friday...
Trisk kicks off 2016 with a return to the woods for Friday the 13th Part 3!

The most notable thing about this latest outing with Jason Voorhees is that it was made in 3D.

The worst thing about this latest outing with Jason Voorhees is all the 3D gimmicks.

Get comfy and read along.

J

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Thursday, December 31st, 2015
11:28 am - Stung Ho
One last quick review posting to Trisk, before 2015 comes to a close, called Stung.

And working on this while procrastinating work on tomorrow's big review. *whistles innocently*

J

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Monday, December 28th, 2015
9:35 pm - Uncanny Without Those Other Guys
Trisk has a new quick review up for the recent release, Uncanny, about a guy who created an artificial intelligence, and an android body to put it in, and hired someone to poke and question it to ascertain its humanity imitation level.

Why does this sound familiar...

Joking aside, this is actually a really solid low budget scifi drama, that suffers only at the timing of trying to ride Ex Machina's coat tails.

J

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